October 30, 2012
Photo by Kiki
The love of my life died last month, September 10. I got a text from my dad: "Tammy, Jinju died last night. I'm so sorry."
What the fuck.
I woke up at 7:00am to a text that had been sitting 10-inches from my head with the bad news. I hated that text existing in my phone so I deleted it. Somehow, if the news didn't exist, maybe it wouldn't be true. I cried all day, all weekend. I had a shoot to be on that morning and told the appropriate people to cover for me. I couldn't get over it--I'm still not over it.
I spoke to my parents and my brother that morning. I knew my mom was hit the hardest because that was her lady. Jinju and I had a special relationship but nothing like the one she had with my mom. I knew how sad she was. I didn't even have to hear her voice to understand her pain. Days went by and I was still sad. Weeks go by and I'm still sad. I couldn't speak to my mom. The thought of calling her made me want to cry. That was the longest I had ever gone without speaking to my mom. The strange thing is, I didn't feel cowardly or weak about it. I think we all had a mutual understanding of how we had to deal with it--by ourselves. It was such a sudden, shocking death.
I've had this lady since I was 13. My heart aches for her, still.
October 26, 2012
October 2012. New York, NY. Photo via Billy Farrell
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SNL spoofs Brad Pitt's Chanel No. 5 ad.
45 dogs in cute costumes.
Night of Too Many Stars - Katy Perry and Jodi DiPiazza for autism.
Ellen's Haunted Hallway.
Watch the final Presidential debate.
Lil Wayne sing's "Take Me Out to the Ball Game" at a Giants game.
I love this evil baby meme.
Ann Romney compared to Bride of Chucky.
Swans video for "The Apostate".
How to make omurice.
Hey girl, I was sexy when I was 12 years old, too.
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Evan, Brad, Megan and I finally got to go to Sleep No More and it was everything I had ever hoped for. I've never been one to get into the Halloween spirit but New York makes it easy to get involved--the streets are lined with pumpkins, fall drink and food menu's are written on every menu, the leaves change, and freaks walk around in costume 2 weeks before Halloween.
I also want Fall to represent change--I'm waiting.
October 19, 2012
Photo by Evan
It's all what you make of it, and nothing is ever what it seems.
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Fucking with The Sartorialist.
45 pictures of scared bros.
Mitt Romney's binder's full of women.
Brad Pitt's weird Chanel perfume commercial.
Justin Bieber is our modern-day Willy Wonka.
Romney-Ryan ticket will overturn Roe vs Wade.
A day in the life with Nick Hook.
The Cut explores Marilyn Monroe's weird diet.
Pitchfork TV presents "Music & the Psychedlic Mind".
Angie Jolie writes about Malala.
Ann Romney talks abortion on The View.
Cold Cave plays Webster Hall this Sunday.
Mario Testino - "In Your Face" now showing in Boston.
Obama on The Daily Show.
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It's fall in NYC and there's something quite romantic about the way the weather has changed. I walk closer to my boyfriend and hold his arm a bit tighter. The smell of fall foods and spices fill my apartment. Miniature pumpkins line my windows and shelves. The cold air seep's through the window cracks. The only thing that's missing is a clean apartment. Damn the limited storage space in Manhattan apartments.
Have a great weekend~