Sitting in the park. Smoking a cigarette. I wanted to go to City Cafe.. but don't feel like walking back. I'd walk there.. just not back. I lit my cigarette with matches from Lake Travis. I don't want to smoke anymore. But I'll do it anyway. Right now, I don't care.
I feel so bad for _____ right now. I'm so mad at him.. but I don't want him to have to deal with all of this. All of this could not be happening. But it is.
I blame.. the alcohol.
What if he didn't get drunk? He would've still _____ _____. But he wouldn't have been _____ _____ with _____.
I'm so angry with _____.
Was I just making up this _____? I couldn't have.
So then what the fuck happened. How did things get so fucked up?
I would've forgiven him about the deal with _____. Maybe. I don't know. But the _____ thing is where the problems lie.
The sky is thundering. I hope it rains on me.
When it rains, it pours.
What to think.
I hope it rains.
I make it rain. Ha.